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7/5/2026 21:13 ‎ ‎ thoughts and happy sugar life today was pretty uneventful (´；д；`) last night i got a little drunk (i still swear it didnt feel like it at the time!!) and called my boyfriend and did fun stuff for the rest of the night. it did give me oddly vivid dreams! i reread happy sugar life this morning, and it's interesting how my perspective on it gets more nuanced as i keep reading more. satou and shio (sugar and salt, also interesting!) have such a beautiful ending and it made me a little bit sad, the ways that love is portrayed in this manga are so complex and interesting!!! even though much of it is different or gross everyone still loves and it really gets me thinking... their happy sugar life was unattainable but it worked in its own way, even if it was terribly sad. on a lighter note, satous bag charms are totally cute!! i really want my own imitation sweet keychains... but they seem like the type that you mainly get from gachapons in japan. not as easy to find here. her outfits too!! so cute!!! uwaaaaaaaaa overload...

i was thinking about my own house earlier while thinking about satou and shios castle for the two of them, and the line of satou's where she says that her home is wherever shio-chan can greet her. it got me wondering, do i really have a house? i guess i do, but its never felt like my house. i don't feel attached to my homes, even when i've moved a few times. i feel no nostalgia for them, really. its more like my parents apartments, which i happen to live in too. my bedroom, my furniture, they're things that my parents could take away if they wanted to and i dont feel attached at all. maybe thats for the best.
i also was thinking about my bunny plushies. i really like bunnies, i wish i had more plushies of them. ive been eying the jellycat one for a few years now, but never bought it... my two current ones are ones that ive had since i was a toddler, and im pretty attached to them... bunnies are so cute!! and they make adorable plushies... i need to get more (⋟﹏⋞) hmm ive been feeling a little gloomy lately... inexplainable other than hormonal mood swings so ill give it time lol

7/4/2026 16:04 ‎ ‎ first date of the summer! ♡ i've been doing pretty much nothing this summer besides going on walks and pretty mundane things, but i saw my boyfriend yesterday!! yay!! i hadnt seen him in 2 weeks and it was a fun time ^_^ we swam in his pool and watched some more of gundam seed destiny, which ive been watching with him since february... woa... it was great! i need to get better at kissing... i get excited and that usually makes it impossible for me to do anything!! i get skittish!! the feeling of pulling away and getting pulled back is admittedly really enticing tho. sometimes i do it just because of that ;v; i love him a lot!!

other than that hmm ive started to get back into madoka magica as i rewatched the anime and i like it even more somehow!! madoka is a really interesting character and i relate to a lot of her original aspirations that led to her becoming a magical girl ... can kyubey contract me too? please? lol jk but the concept of being a puella magi is super fun!! even with the danger of cleansing a soul gem, the idea of wishing in exchange for it based on your potential is interesting to think about :0 i honestly couldn't decide what i would wish for. maybe money for buying more figures lol :9 though it does seem a little shallow. i can't really wish for anything that comes with significant drawbacks depending on how you view it, such as happiness or anything that can lead to the wish being misinterpreted. maybe a shallow wish is the way to go? madokas original wish was to save the cat that got run over after all, which isn't anything world changing. thats all! ( > v <)